Don't be sad because it's over...

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...Smile because it happened

I'm sorry, I know it's not a good place for very personal things but it must be said and I can't think of any better place to mention this. And if you're in a really good mood then I need to warn you, this is a pretty depressing journal entry

My dog Budziu has passed away today (the best translation for Budziu would be Precious). My parents called him White though I didn't like it that much so I called him Budziu every time instead. He was the greatest friend I've ever had. And even though he didn't always listened to me and was very lazy I knew why he was like that and I accepted it. I've known him since he was born and I know there are just few dogs or any pets at all who had lived as best as he did. It was a miracle that I actually met him. It's a pretty long story but I feel like writing some kind of, hm, "biography" of him. I know it's silly but I loved him so much and I want to express it somehow

When I started junior high I moved to a whole new place. Me and my parents used to rent just apartments since they got married and never had their own home. They'd started building our house since I was born. It was like the house was growing with me XD
Anyway, we'd been building it till I got to junior high and we were all so happy we could finally live in our own house. It was September and we were all working on a fence. We're not some kind of rich family which could hire someone to build it so we did all the work on our own. So it was really hot, I was reading a obligatory book in the meantime. And there was a dog loitering around. We had no idea were he came from or why he was here, we've never seen him before. We asked our neighbors if they know the dog but they said they've never seen him before. We've been working on that fence for a couple of days and the dog kept following us. He looked completely washed out. It seemed he hadn't eaten for a long time. We gave him water and some food. He swallowed it like it was nothing. We wanted to do something and we decided to kept him. Our bunny, Toffee, passed away just some time ago so we thought we could keep the dog. My mum thought it was some kind of sign, she thought he was our reincarnated Toffee since both of them had the fur of the same colour... toffee-colour XD
So he stayed. He was eating a lot and eventually got fat. But after a couple of days we found out that.. the dog was a she XD
And she actually didn't got fat. She just was pregnant! We didn't know if the puppies will even survive. Since Red (it's her name now) was in a very bad condition and we didn't even know how long she was pregnant. But everything was  well and she gave birth to two puppies: Black and White (Budziu). They were the cutest little things I've ever lied eyes on. Budziu was the smartest one. He was one hell of an adventurer. He had to explore everything. But when he got older and became an adult he changed completely. He became a coward, was afraid of the other dogs he met during the walk but I actually thought it was cute and I always told him that I'll protect him and defend from all of them XD
He didn't like his brother. He became jealous of him even though we loved each of them equally. He probably just wanted to be an only child... Or should I say an only puppy XD
Just some months ago there was something wrong with him. He got some kind of jowl around his neck. We had no idea what that was or what the reason of appearing it was. My mum (since she's a doctor, not a vet though) thought there was a problem with his thyroid but I told her that we should go to vet with that. We didn't until today. Actually we didn't, me and my dad were supposed to go with him to the vet at 4PM but instead I was awake by my mum and Budziu who just entered my room. Budziu was panting horribly, like he couldn't catch his breath. He hid under a table in my room and I must point he hadn't done anything this in his whole life. I knew there was something wrong. I actually felt it just yesterday, I knew something bad would happen. It was getting worse with every second, we had to call a vet immediately. Before he reached us, Budziu went to the bathroom and he laid down there. We thought the reason of his hard panting was the jowl. Now I must warn you, this is pretty extreme. The vet came and stabbed the jowl with a scalpel. The blood was everywhere. Pouring from that damn jowl for like forever. And it wasn't the usual blood. It was way too thick. And when I looked at his mouth, his gums were becoming more pale with every second. And when the vet said We're loosing him... it was like somebody stabbed me in a chest. I couldn't believe it. He HAD to do something, we can't give up like that. We did everything. But it wasn't enough. He passed away. Me and my mum couldn't believe it. We couldn't take it anymore. We cried like we hadn't cried even before. Our friend, the member of our family was gone.
To tell you the truth I felt that he'd leave us first. Even before his mum. I still can't believe he's gone. That happened so fast. He was just 6 years old. He was a picture of health yesterday. He even was playing with me, he was so happy. I thought that the next day will everything be ok.  I was wrong. But he passed away near the ones who loved them, not on a vet operating table. And most of all he doesn't suffer anymore. Wherever he is right now I hope he's happy. I hope we'll see each other again

Thank you, Precious. You filled my life with joy and happiness and I hope I did the same with yours. I'll never forget you, my dearest friend




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